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A week from today I will be 35...Half way to 40! Most likely, half of my life!!! Just thinking about this has made me more melancholy than normal.

One of the reasons, I decided to blog, was to share about my life and my feelings.  I seem to do this better through written words than verbally.  I am an introvert -- an ISTJ according to Meyer-Briggs.  To understand me, I have attached an ISTJ profile.  One thing that is profound to me about me, is "ISTJs are likely to be uncomfortable expressing affection and emotion to others."  This is me 100%.  I am trying to express more about how I feel through this blog.  But please don't try to hug me, I still need to work on that! :)

But every year at my birthday, I become super-introspective.  As this quote says,
"Under stress, ISTJs may fall into "catastrophe mode", where they see nothing but all of the possibilities of what could go wrong. They will berate themselves for things which they should have done differently, or duties which they failed to perform. They will lose their ability to see things calmly and reasonably, and will depress themselves with their visions of doom."  So this is where I am today--- full blown catastrophe mode and full of visions of doom!!!

I am disappointed in myself.  I wish I could re-do the last 10 years of my life.  I am super-happy I married Tim, 16 years ago.  He is truly a phenomenal husband, and we are sincerely meant for each other.  I love my kids, with all my heart.  I do wish I was more loving with my children, than just fulfilling the duties of a mother.  Christian is 13 now, and I realize our time with him at home is quickly coming to an end.  I just wish I could have been a better mother to all 3 of my children.  A single day does not go by, where I do not have regret in my parenting skills.

I wish I was not working full-time.  But in the same breath, if I had planned on working full-time, I wish I was more qualified and had a better job.  I enjoy what I do, but I could have been a lot more than what I am.  I just didn't know, I would end up working instead of staying home full-time. 

There are a couple other things, I wish I could have changed. I just really wish I could redo the last few years, and have a fresh start.  But I guess, it doesn't work that way.  I am just going to try change the future, and pray I will stop dwelling on the past.  But that doesn't happen easily for me!  But if an ISTJ, is super capable of achieving goals, than I am going to try!!!

Oh, 35.....

T.G.I.F.

It's Friday!!! I am so glad for the weekend!  Last night was actually very relaxing, the kids went to Tim's sister's house.  Tim and I decided to relax last night and catch up on our DVR'ed shows, and we were so exhausted from being up so late on Wednesday. 

The boy's room flooring is about 85% complete.  After I left for work yesterday, Tim called Daniel, a guy who used to be in our youth group, and in 2 hours, he did more than what took the other guy and day and a half.  Plus, he's coming back tonight as well to help us get finished! Cute story though...it was supposed to be a surprise, Tim didn't tell me and wanted me to come home and be shocked.  But he should have told the kids that. Brock called me, and was so happy to tell me all the work Daniel had done.  I had just talked to Tim a few minutes before, and he didn't mention him coming.  I pieced it together pretty quick, what was going on.  I told Brock, I don't think you are supposed to be telling me that.  He felt so bad, and didn't want me to tell Tim.  Brock is like me, he HATES to disappoint people.  It bothered him.  So I acted shocked, and then told Tim later last night, how cute it was. I was glad he did, cause him telling me caused a lot of my anxiety to go away in the afternoon at work.

Now, in a perfect world, I would go to Ikea Charlotte today or tomorrow.  There are several things I wanted to buy last time, but didn't have the room to bring home.  I really, really wish I had a truck!!! So if anybody with a truck, wants to driveup to Ikea and take me with you, I would be very grateful :)!!!

The yard sale is not happening this weekend, I really want to get everything back in their rooms, and sorted through before I have the big yard sale!  I have a lot to sale, I mean a LOT!!!

So, hopefully before this weekend is over with, I will have pictures to post of the rooms and furniture! I cannot get to the mattresses yet, until we move her dresser back to her room.  I will be so happy to get my house back in order, instead of look liking a house from Hoarders: Buried Alive!!!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!! Again, feel free to comment!!!

Epic Fail

I'm sitting on my sofa about to have a nervous breakdown. Tim and I were up until about 1:30 trying to lay flooring. I really should not have bought cheap flooring. I'm not sure what the problem was, but it would not go together.

We realized we were not going to get it done last night before the furniture came this morning. We conceded that they can just bring the boys beds in, an not put them together. After realizing all this, we decided to get sleep, since we both have to work today.

I hate failure, I hate losing. I hate feeling like I wasted money. I hate giving up. I hate feeling powerless. I hate feeling incompetent. Needless, to say, I tossed and turned all night. My neck is sore, and my jaw hurts.

The last two days have been a rollercoaster. I have had two stressful days at work. Tuesday we had all day staff team building day, which culminated in a scavenger hunt. I was on a team with our CEO, who is ultra competitive, and another girl, who is the same way. We worked hard and won. But it was very draining. Yesterday we had another half day of staff training which ended up us each having to do a presentation. I absolutely hate speaking!

In good news, my IRS situation is resolved! But the issue with my kids is still up in the air! I'm one step closer for it getting fixed, but we had to make a decision yesterday, and turn down a possible scenario, because it just didn't work.

Well, I'm still waiting for the delivery. Feel free to comment on anything I have posted!

Grrrr!

So.... Tim's guy did not do so well! Katy's room has one board left. And this is the boys room. Looks like we will be pulling an all-nighter! I just hate we paid someone and we will end up doing most of the work.

Updates & Bracelets

The floors are not done yet, and are going a little slower than planned.  I am praying that they will get done today.  I mean, they have to - the beds are being delivered between 7 and 11 AM tomorrow morning! Ah!!!

On to the bracelets... I saw these bracelets on Pinterest a while back.  They are made from Ribbon and the tabs from soda cans!  I thought to myself, I can do these and Katy and I will love them.  The first thing I did was to get my co-worker friends to help me collect the tabs!  I have such great co-workers.  Kristy, who I call KC, is my cube-mate, and Beverly, who is my manager, were very enthusiastic to help!

I collected enough tabs to do 3 bracelets(which is about 45 tabs - 15 or so for each bracelet).  I went to my pin, and it took me to a girl's blog that had made them.  Unfortunately, she did not give instructions, but she did reference a you-tube video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EeGfHEZXKgI&feature=related) that the instructions were on!  I was like, "Yay! Instructions!"  The only problem, once I clicked on them, was that instructions were in Spanish!  Now, don't get me wrong, I took high school Spanish, and did quite well, I even did Academic Testing Competition for SCACS in Spanish and was 4th in the state!  But that was 18 years ago, and though some Spanish does come back to me, like when I went to Mexico and Nicaragua, this did not!

So, I observed the video!  I did learn you needed to coat the tabs with something.  On the video, she used clear nail polish, but I just sprayed them down with my acrylic clear spray!

Now, the bracelets are super easy to make, once you get the hang of how to weave the ribbon!  I've made two so far using grosgrain ribbon that are multi-colored!  I am going to do some more before football season starts, in solid satin ribbon in our team's colors!  I am going to make them for Katy and our coaches daughter.  Heck, I will make myself one as well!  They really are super adorable!!!

BIG DAY

So today is the big day... Tim knows a guy :), and he is coming to install our laminate flooring in Katy's and Brock and Christian's bedroom.  Two weeks ago I decided to buy Katy a new bed from Room to Go Kids.  We bought our living room furniture there a couple years ago, and I just paid it off. 

As you may hear me rant on twitter, Katy is extremely messy, and under her bed was the worse.  We spent about 6 hours cleaning out her room.  She also kept the kittens in there, and it was getting a funky smell.  The cats have been kicked outside as of last Friday!  Woohoo! 

After buying her bed, I looked and found nice beds for the boys as well.  They have had bunk beds, but since they are 12 and 13 now, neither wants to sleep on the top bunk.  Well, I decided to go ahead and buy theirs as well.

THEN, back in June we refinanced our house, and are going to do an addition.  We were supposed to get back our escrow money from our previous mortgage financer.  We expected a certain dollar amount but instead got triple that money back.  Tim and I talked and we decided to play with the money, and take the kids to Atlanta for a couple days and then pull up the nasty carpet in their rooms, put down laminate flooring and paint! 

Our very good friend Darrell Smith(who was so instrumental in Tim and I getting together) came Friday while we were gone and painted their rooms.  Katy's room is Paris-themed, with black, white and Pink.  So, I had her room painted a pretty shade of gray-Pebble Gray.  We went a little darker in the boys room, and it called Seal Gray.  I posted a pic of the boy's room.

We got back into town Friday night, and pulled the carpet and padding out of the boy's room.  Then Saturday afternoon, we pulled up Katy's carpet and padding, and all the staples and tack strips in both rooms! Exhausting work! 

So now, the flooring gets put down today!!! 

I will be so glad...All the stuff from their two rooms is in my den, kitchen and living room.  Our house is chaos.  The boys cannot get to their dressers, and Katy's dresser drawers are spread out!  Ahhh! But anyways, it ends today hopefully! I hope to start putting everything back in there very soon. The beds come on Thursday, so we are close.

My new blog

So, here it goes!  I had a blog a few years ago.  But I mainly used it to air my opinions, which were mainly political with a little religion added in for some variety.  BUT now I want to have a blog to chronicle my Pinterest adventures and my current remodel attempts at my house!

Pinterest... what can I say!  It's addictive and inspirational!  I am not a creative person.  I wish so much that I was but God did not give me those abilities.  I am still figuring out what abilities God did give me, but it seems like there are none.  I am not even being falsely-modest.  I have no redeemable or marketable qualities. But enough on that subject...

I do like to replicate what I see that I like, and can follow directions!  So over the next few days I will catch up with what pictures and stories of the Pinterest crafts I have done so far!

Thanks for reading...